Today is Holy Friday. And honestly, I don’t really feel spiritual inside when everyone is expected to be one especially this Holy Week. I felt that I have backslidden. I felt unsaved. I felt that I don’t belong anymore. I felt so disconnected to God.
Well, most of us believers will often say that this is normal. We have been here once or twice before but as for me, I felt like I am so trapped here. I felt stagnant and unmoving. I felt that I am so far… so lost… so not like a Christian. And I felt very wrong inside… I felt that I should not be feeling this way.
Spiritually, I felt so dehydrated. Intellectually, I know what I should do to revive but physically, I am even lazy to start. I felt so doomed, so scared and so hopeless.